Thursday, January 2, 2014

Day 2 - 30 Paintings in 30 Days


"Robin, too"
Acrylic, Gessoboard, 6x6"
SOLD

Day 2 of the 30 Paintings in 30 Days Challenge done! It feels good to be painting again.

I wondered if I would be able to do this. Since Mark left this earth plane on 8/24, my life has been consumed with grief. Yes, four months and four days ago, I lost my soulmate, lover, friend, confidant, clown, supporter, rock, honey bunny, spoon, my everything. It's quite an experience--the depths of which I have never, ever experienced before. The loss, sadness, loneliness, quiet, and the missing of all the qualities of the man that I loved so intensely put me in a place and space that is indescribable. I'm not going to attempt to describe it today because I have a painting to do but I will share here and there what I am going through. How does one not talk about something that is all consuming? I heard a medium yesterday say that a grieving person needs to talk about their lost one all of the time. This is difficult since most people have moved on and don't want to hear it. They feel that they need to help. There is no way to help. We just want to talk about our loved one. I love you Mark. You know that. I'm painting again, honey bunny.

7 comments:

Celeste Bergin said...

Carolyn...I love your little bird! The challenge will be good for you and it's your blog, so "talk" all you want about your wonderful husband. Painting is definitely something that will ease your days. My heart goes out to you....painting and blogging friend.

Jodi said...

Carol -- your sharing is a gift to all who know and love you. You don't move on; you move with the grief. Keep painting, keep blogging; keep talking.

Carolyn Robbin said...

Thanks Celeste and Jodi....your words encourage and soothe me. I was so excited to have comments! This process has been very good for me on many levels. It feels right!

Suzanne Hoerle said...

you are so damn talented :)

Kathyp said...

Amen to all of the above...

Carolyn Robbin said...

Thanks KP and Suzanne....I love comments!

Karen said...

Your paintings are beautiful Carolyn.